OMG .. this morning , i was feeling uncanny about doing this stuff , didnt really want to go to hosp, but too late to cancel my monthly date withthe butcher , ironman and Dr.Strange , the whole bunch of Avenger teams were there ... my hart went tik tak tik tak tik tak .... my chest about exploding , WTF now ?
i am hating this room , was here 6 weeks ago on a happier date .. all of sudden i am scared and reached out to the boss up there somewhere in heaven ( if that place exist) and ask him to give me a wee break and lemme be happy for a wee bit.
As always , to filled their wallet some stuff need to be done, am i at vampire castle or hosp .. they always need blood and scan my body 🙄🙄
So after an hour of bla bla bla , medische term , bla bla bla , they were similing at me and said see you in 6 weeks ...
in the last couple of hours whilst waiting the avengers discussing my life , i was freely using my brain to think about some stuffs about life :
* Don’t ever underestimate the importance of your life. Life is a miracle. You have a place in this universe.
* Embrace the pain that makes you grow.
* Don’t ever over estimate your entitlement in life.
* Don’t ever stop seeing the beauty all around you.
* Don’t ever forget those that helped you get to where you are and those that helped you in your times of troubles. We all need friends make sure you let them know you are grateful for what they given you.
* Never play with someone‘s feelings and emotions for personal gains .
* Never wish Karma will catch to someone , as you will get it back twice in return ,
So, it doesn’t matter how much i dislike ( i dont use word hate often) this place and the Avengers team , i do appriciated their effort to fix me, i respect them ( sssssshh dont tell them ) and i thankfull and gratefull to be surrounded by lovely and amazing family members and supporting friends who are there in the better and worst ... so y’all stuck with me 😍😍😍😍
Thank you all for being an amazing and wonderful team for me , i envied your patience , love and supporting me eventhough i was a pain in the butt and self centred selfih stubborn human being.
I have chosen to be happy , and enjoy life the fullest... and YES see you in 6 weeks Avengers ...
eindhoven , Oct 14th
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