When i am feeling blue....

Sometimes, life is a bitch. One minute, you're the happiest person on the planet, and the next, everything feels like it’s falling apart—just like that, in the blink of an eye.

I was on such a high after returning from my trip, when the doc hit me with the bad news. I was like, WTF? But instead of dwelling on it, I just said, whatever... be it, and fell asleep.

Then, out of nowhere, something hit me—18 years ago today, the stupid morons ruined my beautiful NYC. I cried a bit, feeling bad for the victims' families and the families of the first responders, who kissed their loved ones goodbye in the morning, only to have to identify their bodies later. And here I am, feeling sorry for myself... when, compared to their pain, my problems are nothing.

I sent a prayer to all the families, hoping they find their peace and closure.

So, I decided to be happy and started my day with a good book while having my brekky, all while listening to my favorite music. Life is just amazing. In that moment, I thought to myself, What was the reason I felt blue again?

Then it hit me—I need to love myself first before I can love anyone else. Simple, right? So, I asked myself, What does Phil Collins do when he feels blue?

Having said that, it would be amazing to have someone who has your back and supports you through both the good times and the bad, with no conditions and no agenda—just pure friendship and unconditional support.

I miss the old times, when you didn’t even have to say anything, and your friends just knew exactly how you felt. I miss my bestie. It’s true what they say, “A friend in need is a friend indeed.”

But we can't keep chasing ghosts. We need to trust ourselves and believe that we can do it on our own. It doesn’t matter if it makes your heart bleed or your tummy turns upside down—sometimes, what you really need to do is step back and just let it go.

When we’re able to let go, we need to start loving ourselves first, because nobody will love you as much as you do. Yes, your parents will always love you, but they won’t be there forever...

Once you learn to love yourself and stop holding on to things you have no control over, you can finally get rid of the negative energy and inhale the good air. It’s not easy, I know. Life is a roller coaster, but don’t jump off just yet—finish the ride, and do it with style. Smile and savor the moment. All the bad things will only make you stronger. Trust me, I’ve been there, and I’m still here, trying to start over again...

At the end of the day, you matter. Don’t expect people to respect you, but respect them nevertheless. Try to be a good person, and always be kind—to yourself and to others.

My old man always said, “Treat others the way you want to be treated,” and “Don’t ask what others did to you, but ask what you did to them.”

I never stop loving me mother and me father.