Happy Birthday Kitty Kath ........

In memory of my liltle Kitty Kath📷️

Hey baby girl… today is your 13th birthday! 🎉 You’ve been looking forward to this moment for so long. I still remember when you said, “Tata, just a couple more months, I’ll be 13, finally a junior high student, a senior on the hockey team, I’ll get my first bank card, I can watch The Marvels in the theater, and I can join the senior choir. I can’t wait to ride my maiden bike!” You even did your victory dance, and it made me laugh out loud!

Your cheeky smile and contagious laugh—oh, baby girl, little did we know what this year would bring… life’s little surprises. Time flies, and I’m so proud of you and everything you’ve already achieved at such a young age. You’re growing up so fast, and it’s such a joy to watch.

If only I could trade places with you, baby girl… I would give anything to take away all your pain. You never complained, never whined. You always said, “Hey, don’t waste any tears for me, Tata. I’ll be with Dadda, Nana, Dad, my uncles, and Tatas, and Stef. We’ll be okay… we’ll be better. You fight the fight for me. Love you 3000, Tata.” 

Oh, baby girl, your Marvel addiction, your SpongeBob obsession, your dreams of living in a cabin in Montana, the hot chocolate with whipped cream and vanilla ice cream, your Indomie with poached eggs, your love for Old Shatterhand and Winnetou, Anne Frank, and especially Berlin—how you loved that city so much. And dancing outside in the snow...

I’d give anything to see that cheeky smile of yours again, to hear your contagious laugh, just to see you being you.

I even miss yelling at you in the mornings when you’d suddenly remember that homework was due. The tension of racing against the clock while you sleepily munched on your cornflakes, half-awake, trying to rush through everything.

You left a hole in my heart, but I carry your memory everywhere I go, baby girl. You taught me what true strength is. And I’ll fight this fight—just like you told me to.

4o mini

Baby girl, I WON the fight… that’s my birthday present for you. I remember you asked me to promise you that, and I did. I won. 💪

It should’ve been the happiest day of my life, but I can’t breathe, my chest feels like it’s going to explode, and my heart is bleeding. This guilt is tearing me apart, eating me alive from the inside. I wish I could turn back time, wish I’d never done that stupid thing. I wish I was more careful, that I never went back to that place. If I had just done things differently, maybe you’d be here with me right now.

I ordered your favorite foods in Berlin—hot chocolate with whipped cream, eine Berliner, taro bubble tea, and a cinnamon roll with icing sugar... just the way you liked it. Everything here reminds me of you. I can almost hear your voice, telling me the story behind every building we passed. You were my little Wikipedia, always so full of knowledge, so full of life.

I miss you so much, baby girl. 💔

Happy birthday, my angel. The love of my life, the most precious person I’ve ever had in my world. Today is your 13th birthday, and though you're not here with me, I’m doing it for you—drinking the hot chocolate, eating the cornflakes (ewww ), and wandering through Berlin, just like you would’ve wanted.

I hope your dad, Dadda, Nana, and Stef—and everyone else—are celebrating with you today, my Kitty Kath.

I love you 3000, baby girl. You will always be in my heart, and I will carry your memory with me forever.l 📷️📷️

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Berlin, Sept 19th.