In memory of my liltle Kitty Kath📷️
Hey baby girl... today is your 13th birthday, you were looking forward to this beautiful day, i recall you said” Tata, couple more months, i will be 13th, finally a junior high student, a senior on the hockey team, i will get my first bank card, i can watch The Marvels movies in theater, i can signing in to senior choir, i can’t wait to ride my maiden bike.. “ you were dancing your victory dance, made me laughing out loud, your cheecky smile, your contagious laugh, oh baby girl, little you know , little we know ....
If only i can trade this with you, i would die for you, i would happily took over all your pain, you never complained, never whined, you said, hey don’t waste any tears for me tata, i will see dadda and nana, and dad and my other uncles and tatas and stef and we will be okay ... be better tata, fight the fight for me.. love you 3000 tata... oh baby girl , you and your Marvel addiction, Spongebob, little house on the prairie, ( you kept telling me to get the cabin in Montana), hot choco with whipped cream, vanilla ice cream, indomie with poached eggs, old shutterhand and winnetou, Anne Frank, your love for Berlin , dancing outside in the snow..... you do know i would give you all of those if only i can see your cheeky smile again ?
Baby girl , i even missed yelling at you in the morning because all of sudden you remember you have homework due... i miss the tention to race against the clock whilst you sleepily ate your cornflakes...
Baby girl , i WON the fight , thats my birthday present for you, remember you asked me to promised you that? I won... it supposed to be the happiest day of my life but i can’t breath , my chest is about exploding, my heart is bleeding , this guilt feeling eating me inside , i wish i could turn back the time, i wish i never did the stupid act, i wish i was moe careful, i wish i never returned to that place, you would be here, i ordered a hot choco with whipped cream and eine berliner and taro bubble tea and cinamonroll with icing sugar...your fave food in Berlin and my eyes in tears... everything here remind me of you , i can hear your voice telling me the story behind every building , i miss you my little wikipedia ....
Happy birthday my angel , the love of my life, the most precioust person i ever had in my life... today is your 13th birthday , i drink the hot choco for you , ate the cornflakes( eeeuww) and wandered trough Berlin ....i hope your dad , dadda,nana and Stef and others will celebrate today with you kitty kath, i love you 3000 baby girl 📷️📷️
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Berlin, Sept 19th.
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